I have too many ideas

I really do. I mean I'm glad for them but still, calm down, brain 0.o

Like, it's really bad when I have an idea but I don't have a title so I can't figure out where to put it on my chart thing. That's really annoying.

That chart is up to 108 now.

Yeah. 108 ideas that I need to be working on.

Along with all the shows and movies I want to watch and things I want to read and things I want to make and just... wow. I spend way too much time not doing anything at all, you know?

I think the second draft of Heavy Rain is going to wind up more from Randy's point of view. He's a lot easier for me to write for, for some reason. His scenes usually flow a lot easier than Emily's do.

Oh, well. Looks like I'm...

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...a randy bastard.

(I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Like, really really sorry. It's horrifically late here and OMG, I'm stupid right now.)

Anyway.

Since it's late and I'm anxious, I'll either wind up writing a lot or watching several shows that I've been meaning to either start or finish watching for like, ever. It's probably going to be a little bit of both actually.

Actually, probably a lot of both. Both of those things. Really, all. All of those things since there's several shows I want to watch and, you know... things to read. And I kind of want to get the first draft done so I can edit the living hell out of it.

But yeah. Restless, anxious, thirsty as all hell. That's me right now.

One good piece of news: My grandfather yesterday said that he thinks the world of me and that nothing could change that. My mum later extrapolated that into telling me not to worry about 'pronouns, dress code, gay/straight/bi' or anything like that. As much as I try not to let people's opinions get to me, your family is always a little different, you know?

So that... that was really good to know. I'm like... underneath all the anxious mermaid stuff right now I'm like, so relieved. I mean, I'm still not overjoyed at being in the desert (largely because I love rain and this place is drier than Oscar Wilde) but that really does help.

So, yeah, currently (and I say currently because, you know, fluidity): Jezaret/Jezzy or Vincent/Vince, agender/genderqueer, bisexual.

(That's not so hard, now is it?) <- Look, he's talking to himself.

See? ^^^ That doesn't even look weird to me! *collapse* I need to get used to people not thinking I'm insane. *GASP* That's Randy's problem! (Well, most of it anyway.) He has no idea what to do now that people aren't looking at him like he's psycho. His own brand of randomness and weirdness and 'sleep-deprived Goth 'starvation artist' who drives a hearse' has become his identity and now it's become normal. The issue? Randy hates being normal.

I figured it out! I am a king!

Really, that... that really did help a lot. I know where I'm going now. Awesome.

I actually kind of can't wait to edit this thing. Plus I have another project lined up and I get to help someone by working on that one so that's cool.

Wow. You know, I think this was why I wasn't too crazy about my last few entries here. I either a) wasn't sleep-deprived enough, b) wasn't relaxed enough or c) was just over-thinking things in general. Things are so much more fun when you don't over-think them.

So, bye for now guys. I will hopefully stay on this little groove of mine and be back to bother you all soon~

Entry the Nineth: If I was a hummingbird, how would I know?

Otherwise known as: 'If you skipped Nine, we can't be friends.'

Name: Jezaret
Age: 19
Height: 5'3"
Weight: About 115
Relationship Status: NO
Birthday: October 17th
Favourite Colour: Red
Favourite Band: Wow... probably Panic! At The Disco
Last Song Listened To: Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Frank Sinatra)
Favourite Movie: Um... Probably Repo! The Genetic Opera but I can also watch The Simpsons Movie over and over again.
Last Movie Watched: The Poughkeepsie Tapes
Favourite Book: Looking for Alaska
Last Book Read: The Sociopath Next Door
# of Siblings: None
# of Pets: 3
Best School Subject: Language Arts
Mac or PC: PC
Cell Phone Type: It's a TracPhone with a touch screen. And that's all you're getting.
Current Shirt Colour: Blue with black polka dots
Gamer? Yes.
Day or Night? Night
Summer or Winter? Winter
Most Visited Websites? tumblr, Twitter, NaNoWriMo (around November) and Blogger
Celebrity Crush? Tom Hiddleston (and Andrej Pejic... and Emma Watson)


So now you know. That was pointless but there it is. (Also, Alton Brown.)

I finished Red Garden. And kind of loved it. I don't know, they just seemed... pretty real as characters to me. Yes, the girls complain a fair bit but who wouldn't in that situation?

And I've been thinking... not very hard, but, I have been thinking. Mostly about NaNoWriMo. (And the fact I'm not sick anymore. I'm so grateful for that.) And also about the fact that 'Well, the short answer is: I was bored' has the potential to be one of the creepiest and most unsettling lines ever.

I've been working on the outline a little. It's coming along although I'm still completely lost as to how to end it.


My imaginary worlds almost always feel more real than the real one. I don't know if it's because I know more about them or just because I'm usually more interested in them than in the real world but they do.

I think it's just a by-product of a creative mind, really. I can make anything into anything else - a modern-day alchemist. Actually, that's kind of cool, when you think about it.

You know, you never realise just how long you can talk about nothing until you try to blog everyday.

Anyhow,

I'm torn between making another pumpkin, working on my outline, working on any other project I have, actually doing (potentially) paying work or watching anime. Which one(s) do you will win?

I'm going to the store with mum and grandma today. I want sugar cubes and apples. Because of reasons.

Also, because I can't sleep, I'm randomly really, really thirsty. I actually stole one of Mum's water bottles because it's just that bad. Ick. That's part of the reason for the sugar cubes - sugar water helps. (Maybe I'm a hummingbird? ... If I was a hummingbird, how would I know?)

So, sugar cubes, bottled water, apples, and honey.

I really need to stop rambling. At least stop rambling on this post in particular.

Night, everyone! I'm going to try to sleep a little (hopefully) before sunrise. My sleep schedule just does not want to be normal here.