A Light But Relentless Drizzle of Anchovies

That describes my day just about perfectly. If it had started raining anchovies, I would not have been surprised. In fact, I'm pretty sure I would have simply sighed and gone to find an umbrella.

Weirdness incarnate.

Let's go down the list:

1) Woke up six hours early because I thought I could work and actually do something useful. Couldn't focus and wound up writing camerashipping. I woke up six hours early to write camerashipping. (It's a fandom thing, if you couldn't guess by my usual level of geekiness.)

2) Found a confession in my tumblr inbox. "So for a little while now I’ve had a crush on you, and I mean an actual crush". It was a long message. And I'm embarrassed for a few reasons: First off, because I didn't actually know. I am, like, BBC Sherlock-level bad at picking up on emotions, especially anything to do with love. My mother guessed it way before I had any idea. Secondly, the person felt like they were annoying me by telling me and I just find that super sad. Worst part is I sort of have what they call a 'squish' on them - which is basically the asexual version of a crush. Awkward all over.

3) I got a 93 on my math final. So that's good.

4) I saw a guy from my CPR class and he stopped me outside and asked me what was on the final (since he failed the class last time. Somehow.) Then we talked about Monster High (because I have a shirt from it and his oldest daughter has some wristbands from it, apparently).

5) Oh, and I got smiled at by some guy because I held a door for him.

So yeah, most of today has been one long 'WTF is going on with my life' moment.

So

I am an official Phi Theta Kappa member now.

So that's kind of awesome.

[Looking back on these, the only one I like (for the way I look) is the second one. I don't look fat in that one.]

And on the same day, another Trager-blogger got a compliment that basically said 'Best Trager A++' and they responded with "Aw now I think you should be directing yourself to this Trager over here if [it's] the best you’re looking for. I’m still sitting in their shadow. Seriously though, thank you."

That link? Goes to my Trager.

I squeaked when I saw this; I'm not even gonna lie. And when I brought it up in the chat, I got this back:

Friend Two [Fellow Trager]: You deserve it friend.
Friend Two: [Fellow Trager]: Seriously, you are the best Trager on here.

Then I thanked them all profusely because, really, the Outlast fandom has done a lot of picking my little cotton tail up when I've been down. And then this happened:

Friend One: //paps your face and hugs
Friend One: You work really hard and your writing is fantastic
Friend One: you deserve the compliments hun

And later:

Friend One: (heart) glad to have you around Rabbit c:
Friend One: The chat wouldn't be the same without you D:

So I'm still a bucket of emotions about that.

The last week though has basically been a bunch of unadulterated fustercluckery though. I feel like we all stepped into a slightly alternate universe where everything's just about a half a bubble off plumb.

A lot of stupid life stuff has been going on lately but I might have pinned down an answer to that pesky 'What are you exactly?' question. Like, we all know I have some gender weirdness going on (that's why I use ze/hir on the internet), but the more I thought about it, the more I realised that, honestly, I tend to get aesthetically attracted to people (as in 'I like looking at you but I'm not gonna do anything creepy like follow you around but also don't talk to me') and/or intellectually attracted to people (like, 'Your ideas are intriguing to me - would you like to sit and talk about them?') but that's really the extent of it. I don't want to date you, I don't want you giving me things or coming around all the time, stay out of my space and don't touch me.

That sounds like what they call 'aro/ace' (aromantic/asexual) to me.

So, there's that.

Anywho...

I have math and astronomy and junk like that to claw my way through. My focus has been terrible lately and I'm really hoping that clears up soon because I have a book to finish. And about a hundred more to write.

Wish me luck~ and I'll see you all soon.

Love, Rabbit

I REALLY need to quit with the cosplay stuff

But I also REALLY want to do something for which I only require a decent lab coat (which, let's face it, I would probably also just wear anyway because lab coats are awesome - they're like toned-down straitjackets) and a small bottle of rigid collodion (because scar makeup). I can find a bottle for like five bucks total on Amazon and the coat is usually anywhere between 15 and 20 bucks so this is like, the cheapest one on the list. Like, 'I can pay for it on my own' cheap - also known as 'the really good kind of cheap'.

Also, 'Adventures in Insomnia'.

Ya know, there's an upside to insomnia - I tend to get a lot of work done. Like quizzes and required journals and crap like that.

All in all, astronomy is by far the most 'involved' class I'm in this quarter. They ask a lot of questions. Not sure if I like it. Not very charismatic. Makes the whole thing kind of an intrusive, underfoot figure. Oh, well.

So, yeah...

Upside: I'm getting a lot done.
Downside: No sleep is happening. None. I have been up all night about every other night now.

BUT. That at least means I can work ahead. Besides I'm just young enough to handle it still.

So... I'm actually going to try to sleep because it's after four in the morning right now and I've been trying to get a slightly more normal sleep schedule out of all this and... that's just not been happening.

I need to get back on writing too, since I only have two more chapters to get done before it all goes back to the client. It's getting to the point where I really want to work on it just because I really want to see it done, you know?

So that's probably gonna be tomorrow. Accounting and writing. Yeah. Sure.

Good night, everyone~ Wish me luck with sleeping when normal humans do.

Four in the morning blog

Because life is fun like that sometimes.

I have a lot to do. Well, not really a lot but a lot for me since I'm not used to much, to be perfectly honest.

I have writing to do - seriously, I want to get this project done because it's fun and actually really good story-wise and I want to see it out there - and I have four classes to keep track of (because three of them are online) and one of these classes has an annoying amount of simple work to do (like journals and two forum posts on like three different boards each week for eleven weeks and... yeah).

Also I made this creepy thing:

It's a drawing of a rabbit skull. And crossed fountain pens. Because... reasons.

But yeah, this decided to crash my computer when I tried to do a  layering effect on it in GIMP so I decided to leave it as-is. I'm showing you this thing because, unlike my writing and school work, this is actually done.

And, a couple nights ago, I got super bored so I put on a mask and took pictures with my webcam.

This has kind of a YA book cover look to it. (I kept getting distracted by trying to look decent so I closed my eyes.)

"My, my... How terribly interesting, Lord Beckett."

And that was me hoping the cam would pick up some of the details. I was planning on using this as part of my rave costume for DashCon but sadly the rave was cancelled. *sad* I might still bring it though - wear it to DashProm or something - because, really, I should apparently always wear a mask.

But yeah, that's about all that's been going on lately. My one on-campus class is Film Interpretation, though and it's been really fun so far. I way-over-analyse things anyway so it's not really much of a stretch to think about a story like the teacher wants us to.

My math teacher is apparently Irish (if his faint accent in his lecture videos is anything to go by) and he's a little like a puppy in that he's all enthusiastic about students and stuff. I'm trying to find it charming.

It's kind of cool that we actually have book work for the class though, instead of it all just being online.

I have a scientific article to track down for Astronomy (and a journal to do, and a few posts to make) before Sunday, but it won't be too bad if I can just keep up.

So that's where I'm at right now. I think, since my brain is just slightly fried right now, I'm going to read for a little while and then try to sleep. I'll have to be up by at least 11 if I want to get anything done tomorrow and I do have a math section due by the end of the day so... yeah.

Goodnight for now, everyone~ I'll check in probably sometime next week, hopefully with good news about life in general.

Creepy Crap and Gay Stuff

Also known as 'Everything I ever write, ever'.

Presented for your consideration:
RP Blog One [Trager]: The 'doctor' is psycho-crazy-bonkers and currently has a sort of serial-killer crush on the reporter (though, I do feel I can blame another Trager-blogger for that one, at least partially).
RP Blog Two [Miles]: Not as active in general (because mental trauma and also because the fandom is just really quiet right now - we're all waiting for the DLC to come out) but I play him as bisexual because why not?
Original Project One: Dystopian world where everyone is happy and healthy. And so the 'rebellious' side of the population often walks headfirst into 'dangerous' books, movies, behaviours, etc. [Creepy.]
Original Project Two: Vampire Sherlock Holmes in New York City. [Creepy and kind of gay]
Original Project Three: Lesbians and Latin. That's... about all that story is. [Hella gay]
Original Project Four: Cyberpunk assassin, psychological manipulation and amnesia barriers based loosely off of MK ULTRA and similar projects, and wars between technologically advanced, augment-producing mega-corporations. [Super creepy and still kind of gay]

So that's apparently where my talent lies: bickering lesbians, snarky gay guys, and an assortment of non-gender-conforming individuals fighting monsters.

Awesome.

Also, stripes everywhere!

I don't know what it means but I have been seeing so many stripes lately, either black and white or black and grey. Maybe it just means that the best things are to be found between the lines - and that I should be writing. Most things mean that I should be writing. Because I should, say it with me: be writing.

You didn't say it with me.

Anyway, I'm doing slightly better in chem, my algebra grade has come up, my Latin grade is still an A, my earth science grade is an A, and Phys Ed is freaking easy so, yeah, passing that too. The quarter could have been worse, I'm sure. And I only have about two full weeks left. Joy~!

I do seriously need to start writing again. It's starting to bother be that I haven't even finished a fan-fic in a while (and those don't usually take me long at all). Huh. I should fix that. Maybe it'll get me back into writing things again.

In the meantime, I hope you all have a nice day/evening/night/whatever and I'll check in again when I (hopefully) have something more interesting to say. Or when I've made something cool in GIMP that I feel the overwhelming need to share. 'Cause that's very possible too.