31.1.13

January

was interesting. Here is a list of why:


  • I've written 103,197 words this month. Wow.
  • I've learned that whatever word count the story comes out to is the word count it's supposed to be.
  • I've learned that most of the time when you edit something for someone, be prepared for them to bail on you without even saying 'Thank you'.
  • I've gotten a little obsessed with Psycho Pass (which is a great show, if you haven't seen it. It's like if Sherlock Holmes, Cowboy Bebop and Ghost in the Shell had a biologically impossible baby).
  • I found out about Monster and discovered a need to watch it.


January Challenges:

Twelfth Generation (Disaster/Horror/Magical Realism) - 25282
Time and Tide (Romance) - 15003
The Soul Game (Flash Fiction/Horror) - 1001

Also, I'm pretty sure that someone is going to die horribly in the next episode of Psycho Pass. I just... I-I'm bracing for that. Don't get me wrong, I love Urobuchi Gen's style. I don't want everyone alive and whole and happy at the end of a story - that's not how life works. But still... he calls episode 16 his 'masterpiece' and that just scares me. Apparently some of the staff cried.

Needless to say, I'm concerned.

I mean, the fandom calls him 'Urobutcher'.

Anyway...

I'm gonna go watch 'Monster'. It's, like, 74 episodes so that should keep me busy for a while.

I hope everyone's have at least a decent year so far and I will check in with you all... sometime later on. Weather permitting, I'll be moving in February. (Little panicky about that.)

24.1.13

#amediting

I am. And I'm realising that I might have a future in this kind of thing.

I can see issues with something I was sent right off the bat:

  • Formatting
  • Dialogue tags
  • Varying tags too much
  • No tags were needed
  • Topic jumping
  • Stilted dialogue
  • Scenes/Bits that seem to do nothing for the story

But. I like to help. I really do. I'm just having a little trouble finding a balance between 'this is wrong, this doesn't work, wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong...' and 'Oh, it was wonderful, Darling.' 

I don't want to come off as 'I'm better than you and these are all the reasons why you suck' but I really want to tear this thing to ribbons when I was only supposed to do light editing.

There are a lot of comments that I've made in the margins.

So.

I think I'm going to get through the couple pages I was asked to do as a kind of trial run and then pass it off to a friend to see if I'm being too harsh right off the bat. There's a lot I could pick up on but I don't want to throw it back to them dripping red ink. People get indignant when you do that.

Maybe stick to light editing for now and then just mention that there are things I'd like to work with him on and clean up? I don't even know right now...

I'll figure it out when everyone gets up in the morning. (That's one of the issues with being nocturnal - if you have a problem, you're either waking people up or waiting until sun-up. #vampireproblems)

Anyway. I'm gonna go and eat cold macaroni and cheese while I slog through the dialogue and try to figure out what to say about it other than 'fix this'. Am I a real artist yet?

19.1.13

I Should Be Nocturnal

And I realise that 'should' is not a word I should be using but, seriously now, I'm much more productive at night.

Like, I made this thing:


And then I made this one with more options:


So... yeah.

I also realised that my story for next month is this weird blend of supernatural/horror/biopunk/steampunk wibbly-wobbly... stuff. And it's gonna be really fun.

I also have a mermaid story for this month. It's a novella. This is in edition to the two I'm already working on, one of which is half done... with the first draft.

Here's the schedule:

18th-20th - Weekend Madness at AoE (15k Goal)
20th-26th - Dream Week at WriYe (34k Goal)
26th-27th - 30-Hour Challenge (Time and Tide - AMAP*)

*As Much As Possible

February's still up in the air but there'll probably be another Genre Stretch Challenge in there at least.

Are you feeling lazy yet? Don't. I'm terrified.

Oh, well. It's still fun for me so I'm just gonna run with it. I have cool stories, awesome music, awesome friends, and a Kindle PC app filled with about a hundred books now. I'm good.

I hope you are all having a great month and I will see you all soon.

15.1.13

Gender Coding, Villains, and Mental Disturbance

Let me start by saying that I read far too much into things. I also just read far too much. All this is is something that I noticed after looking at the JTHM comics (by Johnen Vasquez) panel by panel and (sort of) de-constructing their construction, I guess would be a decent way to say it.

Of course, then I got to thinking about the wider implications and realised just how common a trend this actually is.

There's a lot that posing communicates and there are a set of ingrained codes in our society that attempt to compartmentalise and make sense of these codes and signals. This is particularly obvious in advertising when a message has to be communicated quickly. (The documentary 'The Codes of Gender' explains this amazingly well.)

Anyway, for the purposes of this post, I went though the comic and picked out a few panels and poses I found interesting.

Let's look at Johnny, since he's the villain protagonist.


(Johnny isn't well, in case you haven't guessed.)

Now, this is a panel from page three of the segment 'Goblins' in Volume 2. This is one of the clearest images I've found to illustrate a point I thought was interesting - namely, when a character is seen as mentally unwell, a lot of our expectations of them change. For example, if Johnny were perfectly sane, this pose would be seen as almost abrasively feminine (that is to say weak, unsure, and submissive).

Taking this pose out of context, it looks very odd (and not just because of Vazquez's unique art style). From the ground up, Johnny is off-balance. He has one leg up and bent - possibly with his heel against his knee - which is similar to advertising depicting a model grabbing the heel of her shoe while balanced on one foot. His hands are clasped behind his back in a manner similar to a small child and his head is down while he's looking away.

All in all, it's very similar to adverts that use female models and - with no context to remove the expected connection - looks weak, submissive, and completely out of place on a male.

(It's worth noting that I do not in any way mean to imply that femininity equates to weak, unsure, submissive or anything of the sort. It's simply the expected connotation in the world of advertising and in media at large more often than not. Very unfortunate but interesting from a psychological standpoint.)

There's also the manner of how he interacts with his world. Often, most clearly when he's killing (which happens quite often), his body language changes but not completely. One example might be the way he handled the gun in the JTSM segment from Volume 2.



While this one may be justified given Johnny's dislike of guns, there's still the lighter touch being used here. He's holding the gun with just his thumb and forefinger, which is not a powerful grip, and seems to only have his fingertips on the slide.

Moreover, Johnny is seen again and again in these kind of off-balance, canting poses. He stands with his head tilted (sometimes with a hand on his face or shoulder)



or is shown lying down in a slightly child-like way (occasionally with a pen or pencil in his mouth)


or sits with his legs up in the air in a similar fashion to a Vargas drawing.


But here's the interesting part: despite all of this, Johnny's more feminine poses are not read as feminine - at least not consistently and out of universe.

The reason may be something to so with the way mental disturbance (or the perception of mental disturbance) changes what we expect from someone. Most of what we were brought up to know about gender coding goes out the window when we meet someone who doesn't fit the mould. Johnny, a frequent victim of bullying, is a good example of that (even though, in universe, the reasons for this torment are quite different, I still felt it was interesting to note.)

I've seen this in my own work as well - when someone is 'off' in some way, these codes fall flat and are impossible to read. Often, villains especially are given a more recognisably feminine manner than heroes as a way to make them seem unnerving. This isn't so much a slam against women or against the homosexual community - it just goes against the ingrained codes of gender and so makes many people feel some degree of uneasy because the coding seems faulty and out of step with what we've been taught to see as normal. The Joker from Batman is a great example of this, as are many other well known villains.

In 'Johnny the Homicidal Maniac', Johnny is clearly insane, which makes his off-balance posing and non-standard coding more acceptable as he is the villain in that world. In media, this is not an uncommon device to use as it serves to unsettle most of the target audience, which is usually young men. Movies and shows aimed primarily at young men tend to have villains who code feminine or at least androgynous whereas shows and movies aimed at women, when they do have villains, they are often depicted as brutes and code unmistakably masculine. This re-enforces the idea that we have strong and weak, masculine and feminine, and that the opposite sex is always out to hurt you, cause you pain or distress, or make you weak or afraid.

I can't say whether or not this may contribute to the apparent internalised misogyny, misandry, and homophobia but I wouldn't be surprised if it did to some degree.

What it all boils down to is that going against these societal gender codes causes most people discomfort. This is a good thing. I'd advise you to explore your world and why you (and your characters) act the why they do. What are you trying to convey? What are you trying to make your reader feel? What would you expect to feel? What really makes a man or a woman... a man or a woman? Or better yet, what makes a person a person?

(*Please note that all of this is only my opinion - likely to be just as flawed as anyone else's. I may come up with a post explaining the difference between sex, gender, gender expression, sexual orientation, etc. in the next little while as well. If I'm going to ramble like this, I can at least be informative, right?)

10.1.13

Let's Play: WriYe 2013

Chapter One: FantNoWriMo (Part One - Write, Write, Write!)


Progress meters will be updated on Sundays.


In other news, I really need to remember that I get very, very tired sometime between 5 and 6 in the afternoon. Especially considering that I need between 4 and 5k a day get the first draft done by the end of the month.

Well, that in and of itself isn't so bad, really. It's just after two in the afternoon (currently) and I haven't been working as hard as I could have and that 5k is already done. So. What I'm going to do is finish this blog post and then probably switch projects since I have a disaster thriller to be working on and things are about to fall apart (in a good way, not in that 'where the hell is my plot?!' kind of way).

But that should keep me on track pretty well, at least.

I really want to update those meters but not for a couple more days.

What else? Oh, yeah!

I had to change my tumblr theme since the old one was being stupid. So, check it out of you want. (Really, I'm not sure what they did - they changed the size of things, I think - but it really didn't work well and stretched most of the stuff I had on there. So I switched. But I really like the new one so it all works out, I think.)

Actually, I think that was all I had to say aside from the fact that I think I'll try to have a topic for at least a few of the blog posts this year. Sometimes it's kind of fun to have something in particular to talk about.

I've written 7,050 words today so I think I'll go ahead and take a break and read for a little while.

I love days like this, you know? I love days full of creativity and different worlds, just like I love those ideas that come to you at two in the morning, when you can really understand them.

Anyway, I hope everyone doing WriYe this year is having fun.

I'm actually fairly tired so I'll see you all later!

3.1.13

WriYe Part One: Inspiration

Where do you get your initial spark of inspiration? Is it from anything important? What else about inspiration intrigues you? What is your advice to other people to kick start their inspiration?


This has always been an interesting topic for me. Personally, my ideas tend to come on when I need them the least, much like food poisoning.

My ideas tend to come up behind me and crack me over the head with a steel pipe, steal all my free time and disappear into that weird pseudo-space of 'I have no idea what I'm doing but I'm writing anyway' until I can find them again. And by then they've spent most of my free time and are legally married in Vegas.

Wait, I think I kind of got off topic here...

Most of the outright inspiration comes from the world around me, in a broader sense. I tend to fictionalise societal issues or else take something that society at large deems 'strange' - in some sense of the word - and create a world where it's the norm.

In reality, most of my ideas are not capital-I ideas, they're just thoughts. I wonder about things. I wondered about language and now have notes for a script. I wondered about violence and have an at least 100,000 word novel planned from wondering about violence and potential reactions to violence.

I guess that's what it comes down to. I try not to take anything for what it is - I always try to look deeper and find connections. People interest me. The world they live in interests me.

As to the third question, I guess that's a large part of why I feel wonderfully magical and wonderfully ordinary all at once. Inspiration for something can't really be pinned down in any tangible way. I do feel I have a gift for taking that inspiration and turning it into something that fits within a story when most times the whole idea barely fits in my head.

(I thank God for that. And I do mean that. I'm very grateful.)

Admittedly, I'm not much for calling a great deal of attention to the good in life. My stories tend to be dark and contain endings which may make someone want to throw themselves off of the nearest cliff. I feel that's important. My inspiration usually comes from what is jolting and distressing or downright odd.

It's a strange and wonderful thing, inspiration.

I could go on and on about the importance of dark stories and what I feel my job as an artist is but that's another post entirely.

Fourth, I've never exactly been a fan of 'write what you know' since that comes across as rather limiting, especially to younger writers. So, lately, I've begun to think of it in another way: 'Write what you know matters to you.'

Write what you know fills you with this weird evangelical zeal. Write what you know angers you or makes you cry or turns you on. You know much more than you think you do.

If something bothers you, write about it. If you adore something, find a way to write about it. Even if you can't get a full story out of it, it's still practice. Make it a habit.

When it comes right down to it, most of us - if not all of us - will never have one solid source of inspiration. We'll go through life, picking up scraps of sentences until the message starts to make sense. And then we'll run with it and make it ours. It's quite a love story - the writer and their work.

And it is work. Sometimes your inspiration will be something terrible, something horrific that nearly breaks you. But those times are rare.

For now, look around and really see your world. If something strikes you as interesting, scratch it down and pay attention to the smell of the ink or the click of the keys. Keep a journal, keep a blog, keep lists, keep learning.

Find what makes you think and follow it.